Whilst writing yesterday I took a moment to glance back at a few older pieces. It can be strange looking back on your old work, regardless of media. You recognize the impulses and meanings behind their creation, but you don’t necessarily recognize them as still being yours.
One of the pieces I looked at was this one. It was from a series of fragments that cropped up on the very first incarnation of the Tangents website, and were themselves variations on the theme started several years previously when I was making a desperate attempt at a novel. The asterisks are a stylistic fragmentation hangover from that.
I still like this piece, although I am unsure if that’s just because it captures a long lost moment from my past. Perhaps I kid myself that I actually like it because of the clipped structure. There is a nod to The Great Gatsby in there too, though I am not sure anyone would spot it, just as I am not sure anyone would notice the old switcheroo at the end of the story I posted yesterday.
I also used this story as the basis of my first ‘published’ recording. A very rudimentary hash of sampling recorded on an old HP PC and a four track tape machine that I borrowed from school. All the samples were taken from the Wire album. My track appeared on the infamous ‘The Family Twee’ double CD in 1998 and I think I can safely say it was the least musical effort on there. I think I may have also performed it ‘live’ at my one and only performance, upstairs at the Betsey Trotwood prior to the first Bowlie. I was very nervous then after spotting Nick Currie and Amelia Fletcher in the audience…
Anyway, here for your aural torture is the track. And the story.
The Duke Of Harringay: ‘Pink Flag’
PINK FLAG
[militia]
Lucy and Sarah came around at two. This was usual.
*
Sundays are so boring, said Sarah, and Lucy and I said Uh-huh together as a reply. I said How's
school? and Sarah goes, Usual.
*
You Bored? I ask Lucy, and she says No in a strange drawl, pushing the fingers of her right hand up
through her hair.
*
Lucy did that a lot.
*
Around half two Sarah goes, Let's go out for a walk, and we say Okay, and Why not.
[shells]
There was still a building site in those days, and we walked around through shells of houses. We
climbed up large mounds of earth, and clambered down the other side.
*
I've got a flag, said Sarah, and she did. It was an old broom handle with a piece of pink plastic that she
stuck on top. A Pink Flag, I said. Very Wire. Lucy said Huh? and I said nothing.
*
I'm going to claim that hill, said Sarah, pointing to an earth mound near the burn that ran the length of
the golf course. There was a yellow bulldozer parked near it and I said It won't be there tomorrow but
Sarah just goes I don't care.
*
Lucy grabbed my hand and smiled. Come on, she said, and that was all.
[pink flag]
We stood, the three of us together, on top of the earth mound. Sarah stuck the broom handle into it. It
leaned slightly towards the west and the sea, and the pink plastic flapped almost imperceptibly in the
slight breeze. Lucy's white skirt wafted too, and I noticed that it had small smudges of brown around
the hem.
*
This is my hill, said Sarah. This is my flag.
*
It was a pink flag.
Alistair Fitchett, 1995